I dont know what to do

So, as ive said, i have a whole bunch of things that i want to get done this summer. They just arent happening. My sleeping schedule is all out of whack, and i havent talked to her in almost a month. Now, i know she is no doubt busy, and distracted with her own things, but it just leaves me in a place, where i really dont know where i am. This vanessa thing is bugging me a lot more than it should be, and i had a chance to do something really stupid tonight, but i didnt act on it. Im just in a wierd way, cause i really just dont know what to do. And this is the kicker though.

Im moving again.

Not too far mind you, an hour or so north, but it still effectively fucks me for this next year. Ill be out of range for the JC, and if we cant find a house before Septmber 6th, theres a chance that i might be homeless again, just like the 7th grade. I really dont want that to happen....